Slow down and look back....

Its been one of those phases of my life when I think of slowing down, take a pause, look around me.... a 'BeAUtiFul WOrlD'... hehehe ....

I think about these things, quite so often, just to remind myself that I am not completely lost in this mad race as yet....may be I am still there for me, could find some, so called "substantial" time for myself. I want to get those days back, those golden days which when comes to my mind, takes me to the confines of my school days... yes the same school, where there were lots of restrictions around us yet those restrictions made us feel as though someone was there around for us, to guide us, scold us, when we used to break those barriers, friends making fun of us with the slightest chance they could get, fighting for small things and coming out winning, those tension filled exam days, the days of CrUsHeS and HeArTBrEaKs, the endless list goes on....

And the night after the long awaited exams get over and the night before the results were supposed to be out...were no less than the ScaRIeSt nights I would have ever experienced, the passion for getting that one mark more than my BEst FrIEnD, and thereafter walking along the school corridor after securing a good rank with head touching the sky as if piercing the rooftop... :) , being praised by teachers, similarly the worst of feelings when being scolded by teachers in front of those beautiful girls of the class ;)

All memories, its hard to forget , when I used to feel how good it is to be independent, no one to stop me, no one to restrict me.... no one to tell me what is good and what is not soooo "GoOd".... Today I am there, the way I had always wanted to be, but still not sure ... and the question is still there.... " Is this what I expected out of my life ?".... Still no answer... I am slogging for that position, for that money, for that respect in society, to meet my expectations and my ever increasing needs but unsure of the fact as to what exactly I need... yet all the moments that I spend with myself...talking to myself and cherishing those old and unique memories of my life freshens me up... gives me a new wave of life.... to slog further and keep walking and keep moving on in this walk of life..... "NoW" is a new moment , let me do something in this moment to cherish it forever.... Let's come back to reality ..... need to keep pace with this monotonous yet "InTEreStInG" life...so that I would have enough with me for making the most of tomorrow... :)